Brock Tyconz

well ppl its 2008 one more year to finish my ns tour. haizzz. a big year 4 me ahead. ndp08 and ex-orion.. hope nuthing major happen in my life this year. well 140108 has pass by. 2 year and i still in love with u ciety. thanks u god. family doing ok. frends r there. will i miss tekong man. i misss u guys. if any of u guyz reading this do give me a shoutout ait. noe at camp on a friday night doing duty. my partner has gone ninja turtle. i don know where he is. " very bad no good". miss my upper study mr chris tan.me is transfer from army to real life and i don think he coming back any time soon. may u be sucessful in the outside life.miss my gal like crazy.. get to know a few new fren like cika. she one cool gal. well hope u and ur guy will be happy always. peace. well wanna crash. update other time. luv my peep.miss ur all..

well ppl i think i know why on earth i get angry much faster that last time..maybe i jus getting old..got this from my besti whom i know like 3 years plus..hahahahaha. looking back i know i am old.. but don i have the right to get a level of matureness or understanding from ppl around me.. now kinda piss off.. oh ya and sad too..still don know why must this happen.. 4 now sorry is like the cloud in the sky..why??4 now i don belive in sorry.sp sad but its true.. sorry if i hurt any one and i sorry 4 me to be hurt..how do i trust? must i trust?the least she should do is to tell her mum that she some where near so as her mother would not call me and ask where is her daughter.its like one hour has pass and still not back yet..wat is my fault she alik late..kinda piss off at my self as not making sure that she alik when she have to.piss so piss.. wanna 4get tonight incident..today was fun.. funny thing happen.. got splash by a car. i mean ther a poddle at the side of the road. the car went fast so the water splash th her.. lucky it miss me..i try to pull her but she pull me back.. so padan muke.. but why must she spoil the thay like this.. ok la wanna crash.. enough. i so sorry 4 being like this..

yo wat up blog.. feeling lonely here..suddenly feel the wind blowing is so cold.its been rainning the whole day.. i don know i jus don feel right like something i did very wrong or something is gonna go wrong. seriously man jus a gut feeling saying this.. eyes been twiching,its a sign that i am gonna cry alot soon..kinda scared, hoping its not something i will regerat in life..starting to thing am i good enough 4 my gal..this penyabar gal..but all sabar got its limit will i got my too..i don know wat wrong with me. now dayz its easy 4 me to lose my temper but as much as i can i did not blow my top at her..its like my level of kesabaran da tak macam dulu.. watup with me man. i try to carm down every time i get angry. i give excuse to jus put down the phone as not to get more angry and say stuff that i don wan to say.. belive me i don to be an angry person.i don even konw my self anymore. who the hell am i. i neither halim nor brock not even hansely now who the hell am i???????i like lost in the lalang always say by my fren jo..lost really lost..am i good enough 4 her..some time i jus don think i good enough 4 her. wat can i give????? is an answer i hope i can answer soon. i feel bad having her tears on her cheek 4 me almost everyday.would she better with me outz.. i jus wonder.. i jus love her that much to jus leave her.. no no its aint happening..i an gonna leave her.but at the same time i don feel i good enough 4 her.. i mean it man.

this how i feel….

adakah diriku ini tak cukup untuk mu
hari-hari kini ku lalui hanya merindui dirimu
wajah mu sering ku terbayang dalam ingatan
tak ku lupa senyuman yg cantik menawan
maaf kan aku gika ku melukai
sumpah bukan niat ku di hati
kadang kala ku terasa diri ini rendah sekali
bila apa yg ku hendak kau miliki tak ku kecapi
maaf syg bukan ini ku mahu terjadi
ku mahu mencinta my hingga mati
ku harap kau mengerti bahawa
tiada ku kesali tentang cinta kita ini
bilakan ku dapat bertemu dgn diri mu
rindu ku buat mu lebih hebat dari dulu
sampai sini coretan untuk dirimu
don worry my lov is jus 4 u
salam syg dari halim untuk ciety
harap dapak halim balas kesabaran yg ciety beri

today never go out..boring.. went to change money at posb bamk.. q 4 like almost 1 hour…dame tired..wee jus finish talking to my gal.. got into a fight again.. haizzzz..i jus don know la.. now a dayz i easyly lose my temper..tried to control but she some time get on my nerve. we got into fight over small matter.. wat is it wrong 4 me to sleep early.. ok la i always sleep 1 plus..or even later..as long as my eyes can be open..actualy i don like to sleep later.. but i doing this all 4 her..and if i really tired also i stay up 4 her also that we fight when i say i wanna go sleep..than i would be piss off.. same goes with putting down the phone.. if talk with her 4 a while only she will say,"you wan to put down da" that i will feel bad and stay on longer. half an hour i say again she say the same thing.. that i fell the same thing..some time i feel she playing with me..am i right?i don wan to fight.. now i feel so bad coz i said to her( when i angry la, i was not thinking) i say u gi la cari guy yg le cleep late and talk to u every day,after one year plus…i was so piss off..now i felt so bad.. wat should i do…i really love my baby..so many time i say to her.. can u please ket me sleep..must we talk on the phone even tho there is nothing to talk about.. we jus hang on the phone not saying anything.. wat the point..i don get it.. one more thing.. she say she can take it if i point out her mistake and i expect her to do the same to me.but when i say point out she will like give me a one kind face.so i say ok la next time i will not point out la if i cannot accept it.than she say where got that she force me to smile.. i don know.. 4 now i jus feel bad 4 wat i say.. i know i don means those words.. so ppl help.. wat should i do???

i love u dear. 140106 and on

wel ppl nothing mush i can do now.. i sick.. but not as bad sa the other day.. can’t even move.. i think my temp shoot up the roof.sky high..well a promise is a promise.. went to queensway to look 4 boots..macam main bagus gitu.. haizz..btw is soccer la.. even tho i grew up in my sec life playing rugby not soccer.. bcoz of my size..hehehehehehe.. i bought a rather cheep boot.. but 4 me a boot that cost below 50 is consider cheap to me..not saying i got alot of money la..after that i went to the mediacorp to watch sg idol the journy of the 2.. i think u can c my face on the wed show.. so keep alook out..hehehehehehe.. malu la saye…demam2 also gi watch the sg idols..there few gal who i really piss with.. shout when not suppose to that when suppose shout ther with my god give wat face like blur sotong.. spoil every mood.. the 24 hour camp was fun..its like sleeping over at pasir ris 4 a night.. as usual mosquito bit la.. frog la.. btw it rain heavly in the noon while me,mac joe and hafiz(pekak) picthing tents.. joe ten sorang came down.. hehehehehehe..me and mac in the tent.. macam ribut taufan kat luah tent.. tilll here.. kinds off boring post.. well lead a boring life and u might live longer.. hehehehehehe

this post is a song i did 4 a gal way back in 2003.. the other one was in 2005 and its malay.. but no string attach to anyone..here me go…

Let me take you though of the life I went through With this boo that make me go boo-hoo When Im with her my life was than complete And to her I was readying myself to commit Sacrifice everything for her even ma pride But some people say its bullshit but its all in in ma might Never want to let go even u want me to do so Holding really tight and holding on with ma might I admit all the sacrifice I make r jus for nothing Cause in the very end I got nothing but hurting All the promises u make r there jus to break And all the love u gave me were jus all a fake Promise u wont leave me but than u do it so And the reason u gave me was jus jus another fake thou I really love u gal I love no other Never love another as long as we r together so i am down on my knees picking up my broken heart to hopely begin begin a new start not looking back but to the muther fcuking future not be a hater but a muther fcuking lover here the verse in malay mari ku ceritakan tentang sebuah cerita cinta cinta antara aku dan juga si dia cinta pada mulanya semua indah belak dengan sertamerta menjadi dalam neraka ku tak sangaka cinta ini boleh di dusta kau yg ku syg kini hilang entah di mana ku di tingalkan tampa senbarang kata tapi yg ku pasti cinta kita kan ahir jua kau kiyanati cinta yg suci ku beri tahukan kau karma ku sedang menanti balasan yg setimpal untuk mu tahu kah berapa dalam kau telah melukai hati ku tahu kan berapa ku mengahabiskan masa untuk mu apa yg ku beri adakah tak cukup dagi mu apa yg kau hendak beritahu padaku janji janji mu hanya tingal janji palsu lidah setajam pisau menusut di kalbu lida tak bertulang senanh la menyatakan janji palsu mu yg jatuh kan bangkit kembali yg patah kan tumbuh lagi ku berserah pada tuhan ku untuk menynjuk masa depan ku

its been a while i have not update my blog.. been sick la. normal normal sick.. went out today after spenting the last day or so at home.. so so boring… wish someone birthday on the 4 of sept,i don know why but i jus wan to la.. sitting in my room, day dreaming..think alot of stuff…rembering a small promis to wish her on her bday every year.. good so far so good brock keeping promise…well teringat the time i talk with olin on the phone.. well it was a long time ago.. telling her that i have like three person in me …halim- this caring,quiet guy who give love his whole heart, a very nice guy i can say,keep his promise,hardly late if he meeting someone(u can ask the ppl that know me),he is by the rule book kind of guy,like to hear ppl problem and give any motivation he can give,penyabar, have pride on wat he has done.person, keco guy, like to disturb ppl around him, but still some halim in it, talk and talk and talk, easy to talk with,joker, enjoying life to the max(but on the safe side) still penyabar..always u c me as brock… next is hansely this sweet talk muther fcuker,loving like to flirt,talk trash,look 4 ways to make the gal he going after fall 4 him..the love kinda of guy…ok till here all of us sigh off..if i die tonight,you’ll be alright,jus smile for me, treasure all the memories…with love

well ppl..now happy with my life.. got a job..but jus temp la.. haizzz..doing well with my gal and my frens..sometime life is boring but some time life is great.. i all depent with who i spent time with..4 me anyone will do as long i don feel right, than i cannot have fun than it would not be great…rite ppl. well i jus happy with ppl in my life now..u ppl know ur self.. mis spending time with my old fren.. all have enter ns der da tunang must work to find money to get married..i will be going in that direction soon really soon.. i think.. don worry i will inform u ppl my fren k..ok la wanna go eat till next time.. bye 

happy national day to all..today going to c the parade its self.. mesti gerek.. going with my gal and my 2 adek jer..well pagi da bangun kalo tak 11 or 12 baru bangun.. well i miss my frens and all.. hope they doing well and fine.. i was on msn when i say her name pop up on the online list.. my blood froze.. i don know but i jus froze and i feel so cool suddenly..its true… i don know la.. miss her but i jus think she is doing well now..i cannot c it i jus  hope la..thing are so diffrent from when we first met… so so diffrent..i fall 4 the old u.. but the now u i don know..i dream of u few night ago.. two times…i don know wat its means bt ya i dream bout u..the strange thing is i can’t remember other thing other that its was u in my dream..ur image is so clear..ok la till here.. salam syg..ok b meet u later k.. take care..chalo bete…

well well well..wat to say.. so far so good.. last night watch the fireworks with my boo,adek and some of my boo fren…keco se..it was so bloody great..last night was the italy show.. there will be naother one on 8 of aug.. if u wanna watch make sure u come early coz the place will be so pack..after reading some of my fren blog make me think that am i a good fren or not..its saddening..but wat said is said. and wat done is done… i don know la..  jus don wanna crack my brain bout this problem..hope my fren are all happy with their life now as i no longer around them.. i jus know why la.. i jus feel they are much better off with out me.. i don know why ifgeel that way but that how i feel. some feeling u cannot explain and such.. this is one of those feeling…miss me or not is up to ppl to say.. but i say i miss those time i spent with my fren and such.. but i feel they are better of without me around.. coz i don wanna c long faces of my fren and those cheeky look when thing go wrong.. i jus wanna a happy life and as little problem as i can have.. its not life without problem. its sad to rember the time spent wit fren and its no more. ok la gtg.. chalo bete.. best wishers k..